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let's chase the summer and forget the world.

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING WITH THIS PAIN IN MY STOMACH i wanted to just faint and not feel anything :( suspected to be gastric, but not sure cause i've never had gastric before and the pain doesnt feel the least bit familiar and also because i only ate a meal the whole of yesterday and i lost 2kgs after that hahahahahahahah BUT I GAINED THEM BACK so wth :(

tuesday
sakura buffet with jiayi heather & xianhuan. :D forgot what time it started but our dear xh woke up at the time when she was supposed to reach so she had to rush all her eating cause there wasnt much time left by the time she arrived hahah. heather left to meet dantong after that for Bratz which we all refused to watch hahah then the 3 of us went to catch the movie STARDUST(: which was very very gooood and it was like xh's 3rd time watching it hahaha we didnt exactly leave her much of a choice. then strolled around town, taking photos, here and there and didnt feel like going home so stoned at the coffee bean in taka until 10 plus. :) shall upload some photos in the next entry cause they are all in xh's cam! PHOTOS UPLOADED!!

at sakura



prettty heather! :D


HAHA xh acting cute for the cam:)


LIU



in town/taka









wednesday
work, 3 people to 3 tables, supposedly very very lax but in the end gave me a headache with people screaming and being wild when it was a wedding-.- there was also a very disgusting woman who was throwing tantrums at the dinner refusing to eat and wanting her boyfriend to coax her when she's like almost 30plus, it was so arghhhhhhhhhh like wth please act so spoilt. FINALLY 1130 came and work ended, but meijie lost her security pass so ended up staying at the hotel till quite late with all the security stuff and cabbed home in the end. the whole trip took an insane amt of $30.75 with midnight surcharge of 50% wth wth wth okay all in all it was a pretty bad day.

thursday
met the working gang hahah jiayi xianhuan meijie and went to cine kbox. :) stayed from 2-730, it was my first time there so i was so so so noob. xianhuan was intimidating us with her super loud and clear voice which she learnt from her singing lessons since young hahaha, it was quite fun la, we all sang alot of old songs and decided that since we think old songs sound better then the songs now, it's either the singers now cant sing, or WE HAVE AGED. and i think it's the latter :( left, went pastamania and ate my only meal of the day (the fact that it was calorie-filled creamy chicken apparently didnt help) which resulted in my stomachache/gastric pain today. went in search for orchard police centre with jiayi meijie to report her lost security pass blah blah then went home(:







friday
woke up with the stupid stomachache/gastric and still left to school for genting trip dance. practised a bit, standardized some steps. the prac itself was quite discouraging cause everyone's unenthusiastic and i have to admit i am one of them. just cant feel the passion or whatever you call it, for the dance. frankly speaking, i'd rather not have joined, but since WE ARE IN IT, i guess the only thing we can do is to DO OUR BEST and yeah though its like really hard cause moderners/hiphoppers/bboys have different styles and people are all complaining argh it's still irritating sometimes and i myself seriously lack the motivation so i have to yeah, pull up my socks and improve, or at least, be more enthusiastic. okay i hope everything will turn out fine in the end(:

THE HOLIDAYS ARE SO UNSATISFYING there's like this VOID inside me which cant be filled i dontknow laaaa, everyday is so busy and we have so many things to do yet i gain like zero, or minimum satisfaction or sense of accomplishment from them AND IT SUCKS that we are already halfway through the holidays and there are still SO MANY things i want to do but haven got down to doing, like meet up with primary school mates and jessamin and wanteng and bunny and anyi and all our sakae dates and pw group outingggggs :( and i have to spend one week in genting and the fact that the progress for our genting trip dance sucks, sucks, and i have to leave time for homework and revising which sucks sucks but is still necessary, and my mother just cant seem to be satisfied with what im doing and is always shouting at me, and my brother is letting himself degenerate and his PSLE is like next year and i have to worry about him and it also seems like there's NOTHING i can do but i NEED to do SOMETHINGGG AND it also sucks that i'm so POOR and need MONEY so i need to go to WORK which is sometimes really tiring and annoying but also, necessary, why does it always feels like there's so much to do but so little time.

sorry for my rantings, had to let off some.. steam. and I NEED SOME NEW SONGS, argh everything seems irritating.

hello world. :)






























haha i dont have any photos of jiayi meijie xianhuan and i at work so have to depend on jiayi hahaha so yeah the above photo is the two of us in our waitressing uniform! hahaha :)

worked 6 days last week, ponned work on thur because we were REALLY tired and went back again on friday. okaaay so these few days of working have really taught me some stuff like working with people you barely knowww, getting shouted at by managers, getting irritated with demanding guests. work is really not easy, and im really glad i learnt some stuff. so far i have been paired with xianhuan twice, and the other partners are quite alright except for one.. so im quite glad. hope to work with those pros so can slack. :D and and we made some friends over there too so :) :)

ALOT of hwachong people will be working there in the coming weeks, we saw so many groups of hc people in meritus mandarin these few days preparing for the work and all, jiayi and i were saying during school, hwachong is our second home. when it comes to the holidays, our second home becomes meritus mandarin hotel hahaha.

have been reaching home at insane hours, like 1 plus 2 am or once even 3 am. some people over there are also not really friendly and helpful, so sometimes really really have to depend on ourselves. at first it feels very helpless but i guess thats the true side to life. oh weelll.

(okaay you can ignore this paragaph its basically about the working haha) the whole working experience is really so much, i dont know where to start haha. everyday we reach town at around 330 to 4, changed, eat dinner (hopefully if we have enough time) and rush up to the ballroom/mandarin court/belvedere. there we will gather for a briefing by the manager and then the manager will do the pairing, 2 people to serve 3 tables. then proceed to prepare our side stations, prepare tray jacks, take the trays, take the serving gear, the jugs for the soft drinks, metal cans for chinese tea, an INSANE number of plates (to change plate) which we must RUSH to get in case they run out cause everyone's taking about 120 of them. and one of the partners have to go out to serve cocktail or canopy :) and then when people start arriving at your tables, pour chinese tea and unfold their napkin and put it on their laps. hahaha and you wait for dinner to start, march in with the first course (this part is rather cool hahaha) and yeah rush serving, pouring chinese tea, take soft drinks, red wine or beer from the barmen the whole night. :) i like working weddings cause there's a cheery atmosphere, everyone's celebrating and happy happy! and im kinda used to it haha as in the style. only did dinner&dance once and it was quite rowdy and ALOT of beer :x :x hates buffets. haha i hope to be working at some prom dinners the next few weeks! think it will be quite interesting. :D :D oh oh and sometimes when you're not so busy, can take some time to steal food. :D which the pro waiters taught us heheehhe and though we see almost the same food every night, the food is still good! :)

that night after suppering (again), when we walked out of the canteen i saw this quote on the noticeboard, "sometimes to get what you want the most, you have to do what you want the least." VERY TRUE. :)

went for dan's prac this morning after reaching home at 1 plus 2 am again last night. it was sooo tiringggggg :( :( and somemore we worked both the afternoon and night shifts on sunday. then had self prac for our geting trip dance. okaay at least this time round we did something :) and and and we celebrated thomas's birthday, happy birthday thomas! :D :D

couldnt come online these few days cause didnt have a com table :x hahaha crazy reason i know. my room is too small for a tableeee :( then if i use the com i have to fix the whole cpu and desktop and later unplug everything again and put them in the box, so i was lazy, VERY lazy. and didnt have the time because of work tooo. but finally managed to persuade my sister to put the com in her room so yeah :D

oh ya, I MOVED HOUSE ALREADY. :D :D happy.

busy busy week again, only working two days, so sad no moneyyyy :( but still, the week is packed with dance pracs, outings with the work gang (jiayi xianhuan meijie) yeay i love the 3 of us :D and i think pw group outing? hehehehe and yeah, rest. :)

haha i finally updated my blog, hope the insane number of words didnt kill :( goodnight world.

i'm going to move house tmr. :)

tmr morning i'll unplug all the wires from the comp and yeah, transport the pc monitor and whatever over :) and i'm going to plug all of them correctly tmr. i have a bad feeling about this im kinda bad at this kinda stuff and i have a feeling i'll screw up or the net connection there wll screw up and then i will be deprived of the comp for some days or sth and wont be able to come online. :x :x hahah so im blogging here, uh last post over here i guess. :)

anyway had prac for genting trip dance today at o school. wahh the steps are super fast, i think i cant really catch her style :x having self prac, aye hope will improve! anyway after that some of the dancers went to nearby kopitiam for dinner and hahah jiayuan and i ate like the most when we originally said we were so full we dont feel like eating -.-

oh ya went for athena's fac outing at the butter factory yesterday. :) to support MAD<3 hahah uh jiayi meiying helen suhui weiting and david thomas kuangyong kelvin casey. :) good job people yeay. :D anyway uh the outing itself was alot of stoning i guess hahah while watching some people dance and the breakers bboying. casey eventually took over the deejaying cause the deejay was apparently quite -.- okay hahah but after the outing was SUPER FUN. :D :D we were chilling out at all places hahah and jiayi kuangyong thomas terrance were being super entertaining with the chilli exothermic and endothermic reaction and with the staring game (with water at the last game) hahah and we were like REALLY loud at carls jr. everyone was staring at us, esp this lady who was like teaching her children, "er next time better not be like that ah!" and she was like "thank God" when we decided to zao. oh no. hahah. :D then we "chilled out" again at dhoby ghaut mrt station where my nose was twisted to the left by 1 degrees HAHAH. :x yeah had so much fun and laughed so much yesterday, it was nice. :)

okay. good night. hope i will be back here at this time tmr. :)

yoyoyo hmm these days i have nothing much to do online but coming online is probably one of the most exciting things in my life right now.. like just plant myself in front of the com when my mom is nagging and when the house is so noisy. then when my mom's nagging gets to me i just turn up the volume of the whatever song im listening to. okay then cause when you're online, time flies, very soon everyone will go to bed and you'll be the only one left on the comp and it actually feels better. :) i hate all the noise and everything, sometimes all i want is like, peace. hahah but sometimes online i keep getting daoed BUT ITS OKAY HAHAH. :)

okay shall update on whats happening these days. the lack of photos will just like make people not read hahah but whatever, one of the reasons i blog is to remember what i have been doing and what i did and yeah so i can look back. :)

okay so yesterday was MAD open class. :D saw alot of modern juniors whom i haven seen for quite a long time. and and some hiphoppers and breakers came to crash hahah and although some of them couldnt take it and zaoed soon after, it was nice seeing them :) i like being around MAD people it makes me happy and makes me feel really really at home. :) something i didnt really feel before. MAD<3 anyway, mr dan did his usual warmups, corner-to-corner and then two dances. hope the juniors enjoyed the open class even though it was tiring and left many aching. i recalled last year the first time we ourselves joined MAD hahah it was like this too. i barely had the strength to walk back home after that. i always thought it was because mr dan was more meng that time, but after everyone said how tiring yesterday was, i realised we do not really ache so badly now because we have gotten used to it. and thats a good thing i suppose. :)

danced & slacked for a little while after the juniors have gone then bathed and left for college for APOLLO FAC OUTING! :D hahah there was supposed to be a rehearsal for our 06 dance performance but guessed in the end everything was pushed back. some of us went to the LT for the hairspray screening hahah i wasnt really following the movie but whatever. :) then stoned/slacked in the rua before steamboat started and i went to join my class for steamboat! :D i think maybe at first thought, a steamboat dinner in SCHOOL is not as appealing as what the other facs have, eg chalets, movies and fac outing in a club HAHAH but it was a really good idea, i guessed the spirit was there and everything was simple but nice and very cosy :) i mean, in the end what counts in a fac outing is the spirit and not how cool the place is. yeay apollo<3 danced 06 apollo fac dance. :D :D then showcase of 08's fac dance which was seriously DAMN IMBA, three cheers for DANCE ICS! :D then they kinda cheated us to do the 07 fac dance by tempting us with a tub of icecream then we all went to do but in the end everyone had icecream hahah but it was very very very good fun. :) hahah then everything was quite messy so helped to clear up abit and then uh slacked in the rua and left school at 10plus. yesterday was fun :) :) and i miss danceee :) dancing for apollo always feels damn good<3<3

oh oh went NYDC to use up the 30bucks voucher we won for APOLLO's national day BEST DANCE :) :) with jiayi heather xianhuan and meijie. then jiayi xianhuan and meijie went to meritus mandarin for the banquet training workshop. the technical stuff kinda put me off abit, like there are sooo many things to learn and you gotta bun your hair too which sucks. then have to give them photo, bankbook and take the vaccination jab by wed. and i still gotta get black pants and black shoes before i can even work ahh my mind seriously cant remember so many things so i was feeling quite messed up, even beginning to wonder if im making the right choice by attending the workshop. and i cant hold the spoons to scoop the noodles properly and im pretty sure im going to spill everything all over me and the guests :( :( but jiayi xianhuan and meijie's enthusiasm were contagious i guess (i hope). anyway delphine's working there too so :)and i hope it will all turn out to be enjoyable and fun :D :D and i really need the cashhhh. okay. :)

i reallllyyy need to pack. hahah okay im damn lazy. and i have sooooo much stuff its incredible.

anyway, i realised sometimes it doesnt pay to be nice. made me rather pissed off the whole evening but well, i'll get over it, as i always do.

hey:)

its 12plus am right now and almost everyone's offline already.. and i still cant get off the com. oh well, shall blog :) anywayyy OP is over. yeay. okay happy happy, except for the fact that i kinda screwed up my q&a it was quite horrible i was feeling quite angry and irritable, i know the horrid feeling will pass soon but i really dont want to get a lousy grade for my pw :( okay enough of pw. :(

went out with jiayi sharon jiayuan today. :D it's nice to spend time with them, very comfortable and happy happy. got jiayi and jiayuan their belated birthday presents, super super broke and had like zero money to pay for anything. okay next week will be better. i need to go and work! cash$$$$$$$ :) oh oh met some people in town too yeah hwach people woo. okay.

my old/new house is pretty much cleaned and painted and everything, furniture's coming in either thur or friday woo happy. i like new stuff hahaha. and i will enjoy having my own rooom. but im really really lazy to pack my stufffff :( everything's still like in a big mess or alot of small messes all around me i dont know where to start ahh and i keep procastinating. welll. anyway my grandmother has been really nice to us these days and i feel kinda bad for leaving her all alone now ahhhhhhhhhhhh :( and i didnt know that i will really miss her quite a bit. i thought i used to really dislike her and everything :( i feel so bad. im such a bad bad bad granddaughter. AHH. and i decided that it will be quite weird to come back here next time on saturdays probably as a grandma's house after living in here for the past 5 years. :x aiya sian la why is life so complicated :( okay still happy about moving back. :)

anyway the song the potential breakup song is like about breaking up and yet it sounds quite happy and relaxed, haha to me at least. haha its quite ironic but it's a very nice song, stuck in my head this whole afternoon. :)

i really want my brother to be more obedient, and more good in a sense if you know what im talking about. tmr is his science paper and today i was like going through a science paper with him (which he failed the prev time) and he actually could answer many of the questions which he couldnt the first time round and i'm really proud of him, i hope he does okay tmr. :) he aint dumb or anything, maybe it's that that pains me more, he's smart and everything but he doesnt use his intelligence in the right way. today his sch counsellor asked me, "if he didnt change to become so rebellious and everything, would he be doing well today" i nodded my head straight away its like a definite kinda thing i always know he's smart. and the counsellor said he's looking for friends, for companions and all and it doesnt really help that both of his siblings at home are girlssss we dont really relate to him the way we should. and one thing she said to my sister and i that made me really really sad, "your brother is putting on a front, on the outside he seems like everything's okay and he doesnt do well in his studies, he says who cares? but on the inside he actually wishes that he could do as well as the two of you." i wanted to die. yeah im in a good school but im not actually like DOING WELL but it doesnt matter. the thing is i never knew that my brother actually LOOKS UP TO ME. i should have done so many things which i didnt do right from the start. oh my god im such a bad bad bad sister :'( i love him alot, really<3